Immersion Artist of the Week: Blackfield

Song: This Killer
Album: Blackfield II [CD||Vinyl]]


This song has always spoken to me, and I relate so very well that it’s a bit sad, really. When I sing it, I change the gender, and I sometimes have to detach myself from it in order to sing it or I will cry, it hits that close to home in those moments. I think we can all relate to the feeling of being our own worst enemies, and I know for myself that I’m always struggling with the ‘killer’ in me. May I overcome her.

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Lyrics:


Don’t leave the door ajar
Don’t walk away
Don’t leave me in the dark

You think you know me well
It makes me laugh
Cause I don’t know myself

This killer on the run
He steals from me the sun
He’ll catch me off my guard
He likes me when I’m down and when I’m sad

Falling man
Falling man

It’s always me alone
That hears the noise
'Cause it's my inner voice

So stay inside your home
And hide away
Before I lose control

This killer on the run
He steals from me the sun
He’ll catch me off my guard
He likes me when I’m down and when I’m sad

Falling man
Falling man

This killer on the run
He steals from me the sun
And I can say I know him well
And so can he because it’s me

He is me
He is me

[Music & Lyrics by Aviv Geffen]

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I’m currently raising fund to go see Blackfield live in New York City for Steven Wilson’s last show as a member. The show means a lot to me and I’d really appreciate the help to get there: http://www.gofundme.com/MyCrazyWish

Immersion Artist of the Week: Blackfield

Song: Waving
Album: Welcome To My DNA [CD||Vinyl]

When I first listened to this song, it evoked some strong reaction in me that I not only had tears escape, but I also found that it brought me a big smile. This song does not only bring me so much happy when I hear it (I often am unable to help myself and I dance—I’ve even done it in public with my headphones on), it has come to hold a very special key within it for me. It’s not a lyric thing, really, it’s just… a feeling I get within that I find seems to light a path. It’s hard to explain, but it need only make sense to me. ;-)

This song has come to mean a lot to me, and so I choose this is the first song in my spontaneous Immersion Series week honoring Blackfield. :-)


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Lyrics:

Turn up the noise
Let’s see if you can maintain your poise
Edge out the door
And feel it if you swim back to the shore

I do believe
I’m clinging to the warm bleed in the trees

I wave and I turn off the light

Your dress may be torn but you wear it well
All this and more may be in your spell
Four letter word but it isn’t real
All this speed inside you
A sneer on the edge of your sanity
Your bludgeon the sound like it’s unappealing
Pouring your scorn on all pride and joy
All this fear inside you

[Music & Lyrics by Steven Wilson]

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I’m currently raising fund to go see Blackfield live in New York City for Steven Wilson’s last show as a member. The show means a lot to me and I’d really appreciate the help to get there: http://www.gofundme.com/MyCrazyWish

Stay Tuned: Immersion Begins Shortly

I’ve decided that, on this Tuesday, April 22nd, I’d start an impromptu Immersion Series featuring the band I am currently attempting to raise funds to see, Blackfield.

My video plea on GoFundMe doesn’t convey how much the music itself means to me, which I regret, and so I hope to rectify that now.

It may be too little too late (as I’m only at 8% of my goal), but it’s worth a try.

Stay tuned. There is more to come…

Paragon

I can see a man that shines brighter than the star of the sun. I can see him in waking and in slumber. His brightness does not blind but illuminates and captivates, like the moon, bringing thousands into his fold. He inspires and touches, opening their hearts, reaching their souls. He teaches them things they didn’t know they needed to learn, and shows them things that they didn’t know they couldn’t see. Yet he is not a man of ‘the cloth’ but a man of sound.

This is the link to my most recent written piece, titled ‘Paragon’, of which this is the first paragraph.

I began writing it in Spring of 2012 (the first 3 paragraphs, save some changes and edit, where written then) and finished it this week here in Spring of 2014. This is not a work of fiction; it was written from a place of absolute love. It will likely be my public undoing, but I’ve reached a point where holding my truths in and hiding my heart isn’t an option anymore. What people think is what people think. In the end, I’m doing this for my own soul.

This piece will be published in book form, along with more of my various writings, before the summer (or during, depending on how things go). More information on the will be posted on my blog as it comes. Be sure to follow my blog’s tumblr page as well for any other updates that I don’t get to posting on this account.

Thanks for reading.

humansofnewyork:

These two were acting like complete teenagers. When I walked up, she was nuzzling her head against his shoulder. She giggled the entire time I talked with them, while he kept a big goofy grin on his face. And whenever I asked about their relationship, she clutched his arm, looked at him just like this, giggled, then said: “We’re not telling!”

<3 <3 <3!!!

humansofnewyork:

These two were acting like complete teenagers. When I walked up, she was nuzzling her head against his shoulder. She giggled the entire time I talked with them, while he kept a big goofy grin on his face. And whenever I asked about their relationship, she clutched his arm, looked at him just like this, giggled, then said: “We’re not telling!”

<3 <3 <3!!!

This is my video ‘plea’ for the crowdfunding site, gofundme.com.

I am looking to raise money for a trip to New York City to see Blackfield, one of my favorite bands whom I’ve never seen live, on May 1st and it’s coming up fast! It’s more than just a concert to me, though. It’s the last time we will see Steven Wilson, the man who saved my life, as a member of the band. I can usually be okay with the fact that I’m too broke to go to shows outside my city or state, and I know there are more important things to raise money for than a trip to see a concert, but my heart won’t let this one go.

Please watch the video to learn more about my story. :-)

READ “If Steven Wilson Isn’t A God, He’s Definitely An Angel” HERE: http://is.gd/25Z7Zr

DONATE HERE: http://www.gofundme.com/MyCrazyWish

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Hello, everybody!

I’m attempting to get to New York City for a concert on May 1st. It’s much more than a concert to me, though. Please follow the link to read more and to help me out if you wish to!

Thanks!

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10 Quotes About Love and Fear

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Let’s face it, sometimes love can be scary. For a lot of us it is the unknown that makes us fearful. We worry about all of the things that could happen. What if our heart gets broken, what if things don’t work out, what if…? But some things are worth fighting to ensure that your fear does not cripple you. When it feels right, most often we find the courage.

“Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgment that something else is more important than fear.” ~Ambrose Redmoon

In this case, love, or at the very least a chance at it, is more important than fear. A chance at happily ever after supersedes the reservations one might have. Particularly when you realize that by not letting go of fear and giving love a try, you have much more to lose by not taking a chance.

Played 2 times

This song has been quite close to me for quite a while now.
It’s come to mean so much… <3

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The Alarm - Permanence In Change (live)
from the live album Electric Folklore Live
(album version on Eye Of The Hurricane)


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Daylight breaks on the streets of my life
Where no sun shines there bums refusal to die
In the shadows of heartache my dreams come alive
I’ve been searching for love to give meaning to life

Oh no, you make me feel real
Oh no, I’ve got you, you’ve got me
And that’s all we need
A reason to believe

Tonight my love will never die
Tonight I will lay down my life
Wherever we run, wherever we go
Tonight I will be yours and you will be mine

In the morning light hope comes on the dawn
A turning point after all these years
In the strength borne of hardship
I knew we’d make it through
So throw back your head babe
These dreams are coming true

Oh no, there’s blood sweat and tears now
Oh no, I’ve found you, you’ve found me
And that’s all we need a reason to believe

Tonight my love will never die
Tonight I will lay down my life
Wherever we run, wherever we go
Tonight I will be yours and you will be mine

Tonight we’ll go beyond these realms
Of where the sun goes down
We will be together
There is permanence in change
'Cause I found you you found me
And now we’ve found a reason to believe

Tonight our love will never die
Tonight I will lay down my life
Wherever we run, wherever we go
Tonight I will be yours and you will be mine
You will be mine
You will be mine
You will be mine

Daylight breaks on the streets of my life
Where no sun shines there bums refusal to die…

Played 73 times

Just relax, lean into it, and let it happen…

Björk - Undo
from the album Vespertine

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it’s not meant to be a strife
it’s not meant to be a struggle uphill

you’re trying too hard
surrender
give yourself in
you’re trying too hard :
you’re trying too hard

it’s not meant to be a strife
it’s not meant to be a struggle uphill
sweetly
to enjoy
it’s not meant to be a strife
it’s not meant to be a struggle uphill

it’s warmer now : l e a n into it
unfold in a generous way
surrender
s u r r e n d e r
undo

it’s not meant to be a strife
it’s not meant to be a struggle uphill

i’m praying
to be
in a generous mode
the kindness kind
the kindness kind
to share me
quietly ecstatic

it’s not meant to be a strife
it’s not meant to be a struggle uphill

u n d o

undo : if you’re bleeding
undo : if you’re sweating
undo : if you’re crying

As posted yesterday on my Twitter account…

Björk - Hidden Place
from the album Vespertine

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through the warmthest cord of care
your love was sent to me
i’m not sure what to do with it
or where to put it

i’m so close to tears
and so close to
simply calling you up
and simply suggesting

we go to that hidden place
�
now, i have been slightly shy
but i can smell a pinch of hope
to almost have allowed once fingers
to stroke
the fingers i was given to touch with
but careful careful

there lies my passion hidden
there lies my love
i’ll hide it under a blanket
lull it to sleep

i’ll keep it in a hidden place

he’s
the beautifullest
fragilest
still strong
dark and divine
and the littleness of his movements
hides himself

he invents a charm
that makes him invisible
hides in the hair

can i hide there too?
hide in the hair of him
seek solace
s a n c t u a r y

in that hidden place

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Today’s track: The song with the line that, by my mishearing it years ago, inspired my blog’s name. :-)
[Read more about that HERE.]

Leonardo’s Bride - Sonic
from the album Open Sesame

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Sand in my eyes sand in my hair
Sand in the places I never knew
People are cruel when they want to be
They turn into monsters out of the sea

You’re not like all of the rest
You’re always smiling and waving

When I was younger I was sure
I could fly above it all
I remember looking down
But I’m so tied up to the ground now

You’re not like all of the rest
You’re always smiling and waving
Can I be sonic too?

Stars in my eyes stars in my hair
Stars and footprints in the air
Could I ever be that tall
Wrapped up in this mortal coil?

You’re not like all of the rest
You’re always smiling and waiving
Who catches you when you’re falling ?
Can I be sonic, too?

Björk - All Neon Like
from the album Homogenic

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Not ‘til you halo all over me
I’ll come over
Not ‘til it shimmers ‘round your skull
I’ll be yours

I weave for you
The marvellous web
Glow in the dark threads
All neon like

The cocoon surrounds you
Embraces all
So you can sleep
Foetus-style

And they will assist us
'Cause we're asking for help
And the luminous beam
It feeds you

The soft distortion
Fills you up
Nourish nourish
Your turtleheart

And they will assist us
'Cause we're asking for help
And the luminous beam
It feeds you

Don’t get angry with yourself
Don’t, don’t get angry with yourself
I’ll heal you

With a razorblade
I’ll cut a slit open
And the luminous beam
Feeds you honey, heals you

Played 34 times

My earworm for the last two days.

Ryan Adams - Afraid Not Scared

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Look at this ocean with everyone drowning
Idiots screaming and everyone sinking in slowly
We’re surrounded

In the yellow lights of the city, wasted as bodies
In bed with somebody, a touch away with nothing to do
We’re surrounded

And I’m really dying in here, I’m really dying in here
And I’m afraid, no, I’m scared

She started freezing, lungs are collapsing
The momentum is passing but the moment is eating us whole
We’re surrounded

Put the guns in the water, they’re turning to vodka
Triggering nothing, we’re sinking, the sea takes the ship

And I’m really dying in here, I’m really dying in here
And I’m afraid, I’m afraid, no, I’m scared, no, I’m scared
I’m just scared, just let me down

I’m getting really cold and I’m looking at you
You’re not moving
I’m getting really cold and I’m looking at you
You’re not moving
I’m getting really cold and I’m looking at you
You’re not moving